thanks for all the kind advice guys. turning a page on this finally. for others in a similar boat now or in the future, things that have helped me process betrayal/anger: 1) the serenity prayer, observed twice daily 2) cold showers 3) 5km runs listening to Lynyrd Skynyrd - Street Survivors 4) DMT 5) friends who can keep a secret and don’t give a fuck about the law nostr:nevent1qqstj8uavzsrcfwz3dwy96qupt5e7p3xkmnmydxj6c8jp6guxq6788cppemhxue69uh5qmn0wvhxcmmvem9q0m