I feel overwhelmed but hungry to learn at the same time. It’s not easy sitting down to understand something completely new, but I know how important it is - it’s just something I feel. I’m not trying to frustrate anyone who’s ahead of me, especially developers and others in this space who seem to have it all figured out. I know I come off ignorant sometimes. I’m genuinely trying to learn, even if it takes me longer than I’d like to absorb these concepts. What’s tough is seeing people talk down to those of us who are still figuring it out. But for the ones who’ve taken the time to help me or even just been patient - thank you. It means a lot. I’ve picked up a lot already, and I’m trying to put it into action. I’ve got my own node running now, downloaded Bitcoin Core, and have the blockchain accessible so I can have at least some privacy in my transactions. Even messing around with my own miner. That’s a big step for me, and it feels good. There’s still so much I don’t know. I want to learn how to run a private relay, but it’s hard to figure out right now. I’m in this weird place - between houses and not making much money - so my options feel limited. But I’m trying to do what I can. Ultimately, I’m just a photographer, musician, and Bitcoin pleb trying to get it right. I’m grateful for the community here and for the people who push me to keep learning, even when it’s uncomfortable. I just wanted to get this out there - thanks for listening. Also, I do have some more photography prints that I’ll share later if anyone is interested. Trying to lighten the load 🤘🏼 #grownostr #plebchain #bitcoin