Not to sound weird, but at Riga, when you are staring, are you processing or doing a checklist in your head (right before you go on stage) Me, I am analyzing everyone in the room, their movements, their facial expressions, their energy, their interactions...like non-stop, makes me super over stimulated. You mentioned you were autistic. So I am curious what is going on in your brain in a room like that main room. If this is not too weird, I love watching body language videos, and I am curious what or how you are processing.